5 years

5 years ago max and i had our fateful first date

read this post or this for the story of our first date

 I still remember on that first date him telling me that he wanted to go to a school called Wharton in Philadelphia. I had never even heard of the place....but 5 years later here we are. it still feels surreal.

for our 2 year, as you could read in the post, we were in beligum and we planned a fun date exploring the city. for our 5 year I am probably going to be watching the voice tonight while max attends a fancy dinner with his professor but that's okay. I am happy where we are. 5 years is comfortable. We are still madly in love but it's different. it's deeper.

at work today because i was so not busy so i have been reading through my old blog posts. max and i have done so many things together. we gone to amazing places, we've been blessed with amazing opportunities  we've had things happened we never thought would, we've lived apart for 3 months, and we've gone through a few incredibly hard trials.and i am grateful for all of it. especially the trials.our trials have been ones that can tear a marriage apart...and we've felt that...but we've been so blessed to rely on the Lord and draw closer to one another.

thinking back 5 years ago seems like a dream...i try to remember what it was like to not love max, to not have him a part of my life. i try remember what i felt on that first date...i know i felt like i was hanging out with a friend that i had known for a long time. i remember having a brief thought of i could marry this boy. i remember talking about our favorite season. but i can't remember the newness. i can't remember the feeling that he was still a stranger. because now he is my everything. he is my other half.

taken just a few days after our first date

us at 5 years of being together (the only time we had together was walking home in the rain..hence we don't look our best...especially my funky eyelashes)